I suddenly realized that I hadn't had a boyfriend in two years. While I do want one, I'm shy and have little experience with romance, so it's difficult. If there was a man who would pull me along a bit forcefully, that would be nice. Thinking this, when I look at erotic books or websites, my eyes are inevitably drawn to the hardcore stuff. Seeing scenes of being tied up, hit, or forced, I get excited and find secret pleasure in indulging in these fantasies alone. But still, I want a man to hug me tightly and take me roughly, like I'm being raped. I gathered the courage to apply, but my heart was pounding all the way until the shoot. I was nervous, but since it had been so long since I last had sex, I wondered if I would be okay... But the male actor quietly and gently led me, making me feel both embarrassed and strangely reassured. Following his instructions, I climaxed in an embarrassing pose, and when my strength left me and I couldn't stand, he tied my hands behind my back. My penis made a 'thud' sound as it popped out of my underwear, startling me so much that I involuntarily pulled back. I tried to put it in my mouth and suck on it, but since my hands were tied and I couldn't use them, and my body was limp, I couldn't do it well. As I fumbled, he pushed my head down and forced it in. I was shaken and couldn't breathe properly. My chest was squeezed and thrust into, and the long-awaited sex almost made me lose it, but with the camera pointed at me, I was so embarrassed that I didn't know what face to make. But I was incredibly excited, and thinking that it might not fit since it had been so long, my penis slid in smoothly. After that, it was so intense that I couldn't think about anything. Saying 'put it in my pussy' was embarrassing but felt incredibly good.
