I heard that you can get paid for having sex. I haven't had a boyfriend in over two years, and I work at a trinket shop for girls, so I rarely meet men. I can't even remember the last time I had sex, and I don't really miss penises anymore. Still, I masturbate about 2-3 times a week. It's like regular exercise or a habit. I'm not sure if this is what they call sexual desire. But this time, I thought I'd let an AV actor make me feel good since it was such a rare opportunity, and then he said, 'Please masturbate for me' lol I've never shown anyone my masturbation before! Doing it in front of someone is way too embarrassing!! It might even be more embarrassing than having sex. And the sex after such a long time felt so good that I thought, 'Was sex always this good?' I'm in trouble. I was satisfied with just masturbating for a while, but now I feel like I'll start feeling unsatisfied again from tomorrow.
