I finally became the female doctor I aimed to be, but I also feel like I lost a lot. It was tough earning tuition fees, and above all, I feel like I missed out on the youth that everyone experiences in their teens and twenties. So from now on, I think it might be okay to release some of the desires I've been suppressing while working as a female doctor. Until now, I've had almost no opportunities for dates or intimate sex with men, and I was even a bit uncomfortable with it. But this time, it was a really good experience. The man was kind from before the shooting started, and when we began having sex, he touched me softly yet in a way that felt lewd and addictive… I was made to pose in ways that stirred my shame, and embarrassingly, I got wet. Having sex while playing doctor was surprisingly pleasurable, and now I want to try it again. The man knew more about the body than I did as a female doctor, and when he touched me with his hands or mouth, I experienced new sensations and climaxed multiple times… He also brought out my inner M-side, and even when I was stimulating him with my mouth or breasts, I could feel myself getting wet. During penetration, he seemed to know exactly where to hit, making this sexual experience completely different from any other I've had with men. As both a woman and a female doctor, I felt like I shed a layer of myself. From now on, I want to be more open in both my work and my sex life!
